Hanging by a thread...
My threadbare soul speaks rivers
To the soul of the pain, the heartbreak
that I feel
The jagged peaks of my heart stab
through my chest
And somehow there's just one solitary
thread.... stringing out from one of
those gaps, one of those bleeding holes
The thread holds strong, yet it wavers,
protesting under the strain of the mind.
The mind revolts, whirling and whipping
that single thread.
The thread protests, saying I can't
take it anymore. The thread begs permission to break.
The mind fights and fights
Yelling to itself,
Don't You Dare Break.... Don't break.
Because if you break, nothing else will make sense,
Nothingness will consume her life.
Nothingness will consume her heart,
giving the heartbreak permission to win.
Breaking is not an option.
Yet, the thread expands and contracts,
as experiences test its strength,
Strength that neither brain nor heart
knew it had.
The whirling dervish that is taking
over the heart and stomach and mind
Contorts the heart,
Makes the stomach flip and flop, nausea
overruling
The uncried tears sliding down the
throat like fingers on a chalkboard, giving her
A painful sore throat that only drink
can cure.
Apple cider, soda, juice, nothing quite
heals the pain-- sinuses raking her throat.
The thread revolts, a memory seeps through her closed eyes, his face a broken dream
Formerly so comfortable, now so deadly.
Her eyes fly open and the thread tugs,
that face vivid, tears leak, unwelcomed.
Her soul feels empty, the thread feels
as if its the last bit existing.
If that soul, the thread, breaks,
nothingness will eat her alive.
Her body aches, her mind aches, the
fight eternal, the fight somewhat...
Over.
Hanging by a thread, she grabs the
closest thing she can find.
Friends arms, the table, her cat, a
book.
Squeezing her eyes shut, shaking her
head free of the persistent memory, fighting against that desire to
break.
Breaking is not an option.
Breaking means she lost herself
Breaking means she lost herself
Breaking is not an option
Because she is not done living.
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